Thursday, September 30, 2010

Im Sorry

Even though he's never going to read my blog again or believe me if I say this, I'm sorry. I know he doesnt believe me, and I've tried telling him, but it's like I never said it for him after I did. I was wrong to break up with him because my friends hated me. I still had Summer and Annie, but I was a selfish brat who wanted what she souldnt have. I realized a couple days ago that I'd rather have the whole skewl hate me if I could have him as a friend, or, a boyfriend, if he felt up to it. He has every right to be mad at me, and I had no good reason to break up with him. I am the worst person alive today, I broke his heart when he didn't deserve it... My heart was the one that should of been broken, no matter how broken it is right now that he hates me.  I know that he hates me, and I'm really sorry..... but it doesnt matter how sorry I am, I'll never get the thing that I realized I love the most back.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Um... Yea

Well.... I went out wit a guy after him, but I broke up with that guy today because it didnt feel right, after going out with Charly.... idk wat im suposed to do now... i try to make everyone happy, but i end up not being happy... Charly hates me and idk wat else to do nymore....

Saturday, September 25, 2010

um... :/

yea... i broke up with him via facebook, but i feel like i had to. I want my friend leslie back, but shes mad at me because i stole him from her, im sorry leslie and i hope i can make it up to you

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Yay/ about me (too lazy to write two in the same day)

                             I finally got the guy I love, and I'm the happiest girl ever! I love him sooo much and I know this sounds wierd, but he smells AMAZING!!! He's so good to me and I'm the happiest girl ever!!!
                             Before I go, I wanna tell u a bit about me for some odd reason. First of all, I have so many besties, its not even funny... People I'll more then likely mention in this blog will be:.... Summer - Summer is a grade younger then me and an amazing friend. She's a new kid this year, and I befriended her quickly. She's nice, funny, and spontanious sometimes! She and I tell each other EVERYTHING going on in our lives, and usually if you're looking for either one of us, we'lll be found together...............Annie L. - There are two Annies in my class, Annie D, and Annie L. Annie L. is one of my other besties (i've got alot) and she's honest all the time, so if I want an honest opinion, I know where to go. Annie and I play cards every time we get the chance, and both are very competetive. We also tell each other everything.

And of course, my amazing boyfriend - Charles Keith Elliott. Charles is a great Christian guy and I love him with all my heart. He's got a great sense of humor and he smells amazing.  He've really sweet and he's on the Volleyball team! He really likes music and I love him to death! I love his hugs and I dont care when people say crap like "PDA" when we're hugging each other in Public, hes rly good to me and hopefully, (unless I screw it up somehow, which hopefuly i dont) he'll be mine forever! I LOVE YOU CHARLY!!!

Oh, and I just wanna let this outta my system cause its been making me really irritable. I'll probably talk about my half friend, half enemy type thing Phillip. Phillip hates losing and is rly pessimistic... HE NEEDS TO SMILE and STOP YELLING!!! Actually, today at the Volleyball game, he was yelling at me so I finally snapped at him. Hopefully, he sits by me while Annie and I are playing cards so I can kick him, or Ms.Pope makes him stand in front of me during Volleyball practice so I can "accidentally" hit him in the back of the head.  Phillips a jerkface and idk wat else to say!!!

Friday, September 17, 2010

I'm in Love

I got my guy!!! Charles Elliott, I love you :) and what you wrote was SO sweet!

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Uh...

Today was a normal day, except for that my lil' sis told EVERYONE, and i mean - EVERYONE i'm still into the guy i'm into. IDK how she found out, but, now he probably thinx that im the root cause of it! I was talking to his gf (well, i think their going out im not for sure tho) and apoligizing on Quizilla, but of course she dont know wat im apoligizing for but she says she could never hate me enough to stop being my friend cause her and i are like bffs..... should i tell her im still into him???? ADVICE, PLZ!!!

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Maybe

Maybe if I didnt screw up too many times, I wouldhave another
 chance with him. Maybe if I didnt keep letting him down and
breaking his heart, I'd be with him right now. Maybe If I prove myself to him,
I could get him back eventually... What do you people think??? PLZ COMMENT
IF U HAVE ANY-THING TO SAY THAT MIGHT HELP

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

I hope he doesnt read this or find out about it

The only guy in this world I'll ever love (Jesus and God are in Heaven)
Has moved on. I didn't know I really loved him as much, or needed
him as much until I broke his heart too many times for it to be sane
for him to take me back. I knew he wasnt gonna, but at least I gave it
a try. I'm really thinking it wasnt a good idea, because getting turned down by
the guy I love really hurts, even though i read the message over half an hour ago.
I waited too long and now, he's not mine. He deserves better then me anyways,
and I hope that the girl he chose knows she's the luckiest girl out there in the world. Im
letting him go, I'm not gonna get in their way this time. (dont ask about last time) I know you're
probably thinking something along the lines of "Why are you letting him go? Why arent you getting
in their way?" or something like "Aww thats so sweet!" but my reason is good: I love him and I dont
wanna lose him. If I get in their way, he'll end up hating me. I may be jealous, but I can't let it
ruin my life by making him go farther away from being mine then he already is.