Long time... no talk?

WOW.... I really haven't talked in quite awhile... everything's going great for now, not like I'm expecting THAT to last... Well, a lot's happened over Freshman year. But I'm still in shock that it's over and I can't believe I'm actually going to miss it. Good news- Annie DuMond's going to be at my school next year (: AND I got into Concert Choir, so next year's going to be great :D

Heyy!!!!!

Heyy whoever reads this! I doubt anyone reads this anymore since I havent posted in like forever, lolz. So updates? That's why I'm posting? Yuppers. SO...... I'm back in public school and away from the she-demon (Summer, if you havent read my past posts :D) And I'm loving it :) We have block scheduling and on certain days, my schedule is: Math (with evil teacher lady), English I (with wonderful teacher person, History (my fav. class and my fav. teacher :D but also the class I have with my bf!!!!!!!!!) and Spanish I (with another wonderful teacher. Then on other days, I have Word Processing (aka typing, okay teacher i guess. Most ppl dont like her but I sure do (: ), Girl's P.E. (I didn't know there was a co-ed until it was too late :(, but the coach is pretty cool, I guess. lolz), Chemistry (nicish teacher, cute guys in my group, my BEST FRIEND at the public school who's also a freshman with me, how could that class get even better?) and last, but not least, Nutrition and Wellness. (fun teacher)And well, it's going great. I have a boyfriend and he's wonderful :D Before I say his name, however, I wanna make sure it's okay with him. Honestly, and weirdly cause I have no idea why, but I think he's the only guy I've acutally felt comfortable having as my boyfriend since the ex boyfriend (not the one in like Febuary, but like you know, I havent posted in quite awhile, so I owe you this long of a post) I just had and Charles/Charlyy.
According to everyone who's known me forever, I've grown up alot???? I don't know how but like, my mom said I've became a lot more mature and happy since I've been in public school. I think being away from HER (Summer) is helping alot.
For those of you who don't know Summer and I's past, I realize now surprisingly I havent told you all that went on that makes her from the best friend to the enemy.
Well, you see, Summer led me on from the beginning of the school year last year to the beginning of Christmas break thinking we were BFF's. Then, she got into my Facebook account and cussed one of my good friends out. And its not the fact she did that that makes her horrible, it's that ALL my friends could see it and she won't even own up to it. And when I refused to take the blame, since everyone from my church could see it and everyone of all my other friends, that made me look like a biotch, not her. And so since I refused to take the blame for what she did, though the girl who it happened to believes me, but since I refuse still to take the blame, she told the whole Christian school a bunch of rumors about me and called me a whore and a skank and a slut and told them I used to cut myself.... (true, though about the cutting, I hate to admit) and stuff worse then that, probably. And she still tries to act like my best friend while we're in public school. So... yea, that's why I despise her.
Well anywho... where was I? Sorry, I got a little off topic. Oh yea... I've MATURED??? i dont get it but WHATEVER. I'm gonna go, this is too long. LOLZ

KISS KISS!!!!!!

Annie DuMond

Annie DuMond is my best best best best BEST friend in the world, I couldnt live without her and we're inseperable together. We became best friends in January and we're closer then I've been with mostly anyone, she's definitly a lot better then Summer for one thing, and I love her a whole lot more then Shyann! I just thought since I havent written on here in awhile, I wanted to give her a shoutout! Love ya Annie your my bestest friend everz!!! And Charles,if your reading this, GET IN CONTACT WITH ME!!!!!!

I'm Misrable

He's gone. He's in Texas now. I love him, but I cant and wont get another chance because even if he opens that door again, I wont be able to because he's in another state. I feel bad about all of this, but im at loss. He's gone... Summer backstabbed me and is now spreading rumors... Why is everyone trying to get me to my breaking point now that he's not here??? Well... I'm gonna ask my mom to transfer me to another private school over the summer if everything keeps going wrong in my life.... it's the only solution now that my breaking point is coming... I wont be surprised if one day I randomly just break down. I promised him I wouldnt do something anymore, but I want to so bad.... but a promise is a promise so I'm not gonna.

Cya for now :'(

IDK ANYMORE

We're broke up... my doing, again. Im just so confused lately, one person says "He's gonna break your heart" while another says "your good together" while another says "he's cheating on you" when other people say "again? is it gonna last this time?" theres so many different thoughts about it and i just cant take that crap anymore.... im confused, heartbroken, happy but yet sorrowfull at the same time... i dont even know what i want or how i feel..... i see why hes madder then ever bout our breakup this time

Grrf

I've got my man, she hates me again... wondering if this is worth it..... i think it probably is but everyone has their doubts... right?

Yay (sorta)

Hes my friend again!!! I dnt think he wants to be as close friends as we were before just yet, but I can live with this so far! As long as he doesnt hate me anymore!!!! YAY!!!!

The White Knights won a Volleyball game against lightning yesterday, everyone playedf RLY well!!! We actually used alot of teamwork!

Annie L. and I were accidentally late for our first game, tho, because we went to the Candy Store down in the mall... well.... thats all thats been going on so far!

Im Sorry

Even though he's never going to read my blog again or believe me if I say this, I'm sorry. I know he doesnt believe me, and I've tried telling him, but it's like I never said it for him after I did. I was wrong to break up with him because my friends hated me. I still had Summer and Annie, but I was a selfish brat who wanted what she souldnt have. I realized a couple days ago that I'd rather have the whole skewl hate me if I could have him as a friend, or, a boyfriend, if he felt up to it. He has every right to be mad at me, and I had no good reason to break up with him. I am the worst person alive today, I broke his heart when he didn't deserve it... My heart was the one that should of been broken, no matter how broken it is right now that he hates me.  I know that he hates me, and I'm really sorry..... but it doesnt matter how sorry I am, I'll never get the thing that I realized I love the most back.

Um... Yea

Well.... I went out wit a guy after him, but I broke up with that guy today because it didnt feel right, after going out with Charly.... idk wat im suposed to do now... i try to make everyone happy, but i end up not being happy... Charly hates me and idk wat else to do nymore....

um... :/

yea... i broke up with him via facebook, but i feel like i had to. I want my friend leslie back, but shes mad at me because i stole him from her, im sorry leslie and i hope i can make it up to you

Yay/ about me (too lazy to write two in the same day)

                             I finally got the guy I love, and I'm the happiest girl ever! I love him sooo much and I know this sounds wierd, but he smells AMAZING!!! He's so good to me and I'm the happiest girl ever!!!
                             Before I go, I wanna tell u a bit about me for some odd reason. First of all, I have so many besties, its not even funny... People I'll more then likely mention in this blog will be:.... Summer - Summer is a grade younger then me and an amazing friend. She's a new kid this year, and I befriended her quickly. She's nice, funny, and spontanious sometimes! She and I tell each other EVERYTHING going on in our lives, and usually if you're looking for either one of us, we'lll be found together...............Annie L. - There are two Annies in my class, Annie D, and Annie L. Annie L. is one of my other besties (i've got alot) and she's honest all the time, so if I want an honest opinion, I know where to go. Annie and I play cards every time we get the chance, and both are very competetive. We also tell each other everything.

And of course, my amazing boyfriend - Charles Keith Elliott. Charles is a great Christian guy and I love him with all my heart. He's got a great sense of humor and he smells amazing.  He've really sweet and he's on the Volleyball team! He really likes music and I love him to death! I love his hugs and I dont care when people say crap like "PDA" when we're hugging each other in Public, hes rly good to me and hopefully, (unless I screw it up somehow, which hopefuly i dont) he'll be mine forever! I LOVE YOU CHARLY!!!

Oh, and I just wanna let this outta my system cause its been making me really irritable. I'll probably talk about my half friend, half enemy type thing Phillip. Phillip hates losing and is rly pessimistic... HE NEEDS TO SMILE and STOP YELLING!!! Actually, today at the Volleyball game, he was yelling at me so I finally snapped at him. Hopefully, he sits by me while Annie and I are playing cards so I can kick him, or Ms.Pope makes him stand in front of me during Volleyball practice so I can "accidentally" hit him in the back of the head.  Phillips a jerkface and idk wat else to say!!!

I'm in Love

I got my guy!!! Charles Elliott, I love you :) and what you wrote was SO sweet!

Uh...

Today was a normal day, except for that my lil' sis told EVERYONE, and i mean - EVERYONE i'm still into the guy i'm into. IDK how she found out, but, now he probably thinx that im the root cause of it! I was talking to his gf (well, i think their going out im not for sure tho) and apoligizing on Quizilla, but of course she dont know wat im apoligizing for but she says she could never hate me enough to stop being my friend cause her and i are like bffs..... should i tell her im still into him???? ADVICE, PLZ!!!

Maybe

Maybe if I didnt screw up too many times, I wouldhave another
 chance with him. Maybe if I didnt keep letting him down and
breaking his heart, I'd be with him right now. Maybe If I prove myself to him,
I could get him back eventually... What do you people think??? PLZ COMMENT
IF U HAVE ANY-THING TO SAY THAT MIGHT HELP

I hope he doesnt read this or find out about it

The only guy in this world I'll ever love (Jesus and God are in Heaven)
Has moved on. I didn't know I really loved him as much, or needed
him as much until I broke his heart too many times for it to be sane
for him to take me back. I knew he wasnt gonna, but at least I gave it
a try. I'm really thinking it wasnt a good idea, because getting turned down by
the guy I love really hurts, even though i read the message over half an hour ago.
I waited too long and now, he's not mine. He deserves better then me anyways,
and I hope that the girl he chose knows she's the luckiest girl out there in the world. Im
letting him go, I'm not gonna get in their way this time. (dont ask about last time) I know you're
probably thinking something along the lines of "Why are you letting him go? Why arent you getting
in their way?" or something like "Aww thats so sweet!" but my reason is good: I love him and I dont
wanna lose him. If I get in their way, he'll end up hating me. I may be jealous, but I can't let it
ruin my life by making him go farther away from being mine then he already is.